The Journey

I like my job. I'm in love with it. Whenever I'm at work, I'd be occupied with my responsibilities and it does feel like I'm being another person. Someone else. I will only get back on the ground, keeping in touch with my life when I'm walking out from Phileo Damansara.

We don't have that much people in the office. I think about 14 person jer. I have a pot smoking buddy, the copywriter. I'm always the one who has to roll the joint in the toilet (coz usually the stuff is his, so dia diberi layanan istimewa) and then we'll go to the Basement parking to smoke it up. One day, after smoking together we walked back up to the office, when my Account Director asked us bluntly, did we just smoke weed?

Tell you, my face was white. She laughed, and said it's cool. She knew it all along. She was being so cool, she said she used to smoke it too, but when she got married, her husband and her made a pact never to smoke it again. That's why even though Izham (the copywriter) kept inviting her along, she'd decline politely by saying she's not gonna be the first who breaks that promise. How sweet..

We also have a designer who is deaf and mute, his name is Terry. He is a web designer, which pretty much involves my account, so we work closely together. He likes to joke around, his kind of joke is pretty much silent (duh!) which involves a lot of showing his middle finger to my face, and shoulder punching.

Whenever I'm tired of the drama created by an annoying colleague, I'll resort to Terry's cubicle, pretending to oversee his design and correct it here and there. Padahal takde kerja apa pun, cuma nak duduk sebelah orang yang tak boleh cakap dan dengar. Sometimes it's good to be in silence.

It was hard at first, the attempt to fit in. But I guess I passed that, and everyone is warm to me now. I have an annoying colleague tho', she once said that she regretted cutting her hair short sebab boyfriend dia marah. Rupanya boyfriend dia suka tarik rambut dia whenever they have sex in doggy style position. Oh my God, why the fuck is she telling me that? Horror, sial.

Banyak lagi lah cerita annoying dia. Dia suka hog the staircase area (that's where our smoking area is!) and bercakap telefon gaduh-gaduh dengan boyfriend sambil nangis.

Oh yah, I now know how to talk in sign language. Terry taught me. Almost everyone in the office knows sign language, all thanks to Terry. Terry just got married, so I always tease him by imitating a fucking gesture sambil buat-buat spank bontot that invisible chick in front of me.

I guess it's all good now. However, while I'm having fun and learning more about the web, I shall not forget the real objective there; to gain as much as possible, and apply it onto my own company later on.

God, I desperately need You to bless me. Sometimes Your way differs from my desires, but I know You are the wisest planner. I shall not question that. But I also know now I am not subjected to just accept everything that is fated onto me, because I will try to challenge it in form of efforts, to gain what I really want in life. I think that's what You want to see in us humans; the ability to fight, and not just conform to every single thing that happens. But even so, it's all up to You. One can only plan..